Day 57 - May 19, 2011

Have you ever wondered how it is that things you wanted so badly maybe years ago and lost interest in them come rushing to you?  Well, something like that has been happening to me. What happened is that many - many- moons ago I wanted to gain recognition on the stuff I do for mullah. I pushed soooo hard and tried sooooo hard that  I just got tired of trying and decided not to pursue it anymore. Well, as with everything else, by letting it go I came into alignment with it and now I am getting the recognition that I no longer wanted! Isn't that funny?  Not only that, when I got invited to be here I politely said no and explained there were no funds to do it. Well, once again the universe spoke to me. Before I knew it I had received a call from SuperSmartBoy indicating the association was paying for all my expenses. 
This apparently is unprecedented as they have never done it before. EVERYTHING COVERED.  And this comes to me when I no longer was asking for it! I am not saying that I don't appreciate it, I really really do! What I'm saying is that it is not as important to me as it once was and now it is coming to me. No, let me rephrase that, it is rushing towards me.  I find myself now sharing rooms and meals with people that I used to only wish they would talk to me a few years ago.  To me, this is another clear example of how the universe works. And how true it is that the more we measure what we don't have; the more we notice the absence of what we have, the further away we push it.  But as soon as we relax and focus on what we do have, it is like opening the flood gates. But that's just me.

I tell you, I am having so much fun in JazzCity.  I am learning a lot of that stuff I do for mullah, but also, I am learning a lot from other people. Some are pushing so hard against their own flow and others have learned the trick of letting go.  I love this! Oh! and not only that, I know the universe is sending me Romeo's representative very soon, because I have been seeing evidence of his proximity. This is ex-ci-ting!

I  love that you like my language.  I have to laugh because I got you all renaming things throughout your day now! hehehe  Isn't it fun? Doesn't it change your outlook even a smidgen?

This morning I woke up very early to meditate and then went back to sleep. Needless to say it took an act of congress to get me out of bed an hour later.  My companion is a early-hours person and could not understand why I had to snooze my alarm so many times. See, to me, sleeping is like having fun.  No structure and no limitations.  Others see it as a lack of responsibility.  Which definition do you like best?  Right! Me too.

Today I spent all day indoors and so I did not expect to see any butterflies. I had forgotten completely about them. After the work day I went to a nearby merchandise trading post. As I was paying for  my purchase, the cashier, a young a very talkative girl, asked if I could give her my opinion on something she was going to wear this evening.  To my surprise, she pulled out some hair pins in the shape of a butterfly.  There you have it!

Tomorrow shall be another day of working all day. I miss my nest and my fluffy!!!!!!  Most of all, I miss my pack!!!!!

Well friend, it's  been nice talking to you again.  Smile big. It's worth it.

Ta-da for now!